February 13, 2025 (6 Trades) (-$442.50)
Overall Grade: F
DAILY - ES
5 MIN - ES
TRADES
Day Summary: ​​​​​​Today's trade review will be a bit different, because I'm not going to go through each trade that I took today. It honestly doesn't even make sense to because the trades I took today did not follow my strategy or set ups, but were simply complete gamble trades hoping to get lucky and make my money back. In a way that is a good thing, because it means that it is not a problem with my trading, just my emotional control, and that is why today I want to just reflect on my mental state instead of going over the tecnicals of the trades. I still included the image of my trades today (see above) just so you can see how shit they were lol.
To start off, from yesterday night I was already thinking about the fact that I just got a funded account and once again, had my live account back withing $100 of breakeven, so I was already thinking about the money from the night before. I also woke up with a headache this morning and told myself that I didn't feel like I was in a good state to be trading, but because I was thinking about the money, I nelected this signal from my brain. I need to remember that trading is all about making the consious decision not to do dumb things. Most of the time, my dumb trading decisions are not just made on the spot, I typically have a few seconds of clarity about whether or not the decisions is a good one, and time and time again I prove to myself that if I neglect that concious warning, I end up fucking up. I need to make the conscious decision not to act on those dumb impulses.
Although I was long biased based on the 30Min chart (ICT) and that is what ended up playing out, I took a bad trade one for the day based on where I took the trade, and made it worse by not stopping out where I had planned. That sent me into a mental spiral where I was completely forcing stupid trades and just didn't want to stop. I knew that these trades would most likely end up with pain and I was willing and almost wanting to feel that pain of losing money, of being wrong, of feeling like an idiot in trading, and I got it. The 4th and 5th trade specifically I knew I was in bad positons and still chose to enter and hold. I had no emotional control today and it blew up my whole month in a day. I cannot allow that to continue to happen, and even though I know I won't be perfect, I need to make sure I am limiting black days as much as possible.